I'm Coming Back

Public writing has not been easy for me lately. Whenever I try to write anything for a blog post, I end up ripping it to shreds.

Because of my own criticism, as well as my own desire to keep more of my experiences and thoughts private, I've felt somewhat devoid of a voice lately. While my personal journal writing is almost the only way I can process how the external matters of my life are internally affecting me, any public writing accomplishes this plus gives me a feeling of excitement and fulfillment. I have ideas and experiences to contribute. I have a voice that cannot and should not be stifled, by me or anyone else. I'm realizing censoring and stifling are two very different things.

I need to begin writing for a public audience again. Reading books, articles, and friends' blogs allows me to feel connected to humanity in ways that nothing else can. The stories, wisdom, and insight inspire, enlighten, and encourage me. And I know I too have the same ability to inspire, enlighten, and encourage. I have the ability to expose my own humanity and my encounters with a loving God. I am gaining wisdom. I am digging deeper. I am learning discernment. And I want to speak into the brokenness and pain and divisions in this world. I can't claim I know a lot, but I believe in a God that can use me for a greater purpose in this world than I have the ability to understand in this moment, or maybe ever.

So this post is really just a post to say, "Hey, I'm here! And I miss sharing life with you! And I have things to say!" Between full-time work, two night classes, spending time with family and friends, eating, exercising, trying not to get too addicted to my new super cute iPhone 5c, and getting adequate sleep, I feel I don't have time for much. But I do have time for a paragraph of insight every now and then.

I'm ready to not only be on the receiving end of information and insight. I'm ready to contribute.